I spent hours and hours talking about karma during my yoga teacher training program. We had everyone from a lama to a Reverend speak with us. At one class, we spoke about world views. Apparently (I’m not sure who came up with this), there are three general world views:
1. There is a God: Everything that happens is due to God’s will. If you win the lottery, it’s God’s will. If you cannot have a baby, it’s God’s will.
2. Karma: For every action, there’s a reaction. Everything that is happening in your life is due to a past action that you took in this life or a previous life.
3. There is no God or Karma. Things just are.
The more I learned about karma, the more it resonated with me. When I was diagnosed with Type 1 diabetes at age 11, I felt that I was being punished by God. I was such a good little girl that I felt it was must have been a result of something I did in a past life. I don’t know where that thought came from since I grew up in a Catholic family and I enjoyed going to church. I don’t remember ever speaking or learning about past lives. Anyway, karma clicked with me.
At the same time, I still studied the law of attraction and how our thoughts manifest our life. So many books and movies, ie, The Secret, talk about creating vision boards and making wishes. Hell, I prescribe to that. If things happen the way we want them to, then great! We are successful. When they don’t, according to The Secret and other LOA gurus, it’s because our thoughts and energy are not aligned with what we really want. Really, it’s all our fault. We must have hidden subconscious desires and fears. We must have limiting thoughts that are preventing us from manifesting our wish.
Is that true? Is that really true??? Are our thoughts that freaking powerful?
I don’t know what the hell to think. Two women, from the same family, in my town recently passed away. One was older, a grandmother who had not been well for years. The other woman was just 31 years old and newly pregnant. Was this their karma? God’s will? Or do things just happen? While I am not a mind reader, I have a hard time imagining that either of them wanted to die. Did the grandmother or the newly pregnant woman have hidden, subconscious thoughts that manifested into illness (something that I was taught in my Reiki training)?
In my yoga training, we studied Sanskrit with Manorama. She said that if we were lucky, we would only have about two or three Unanswerable Whys in our lives. You know what I’m talking about. Those events that happen to us in which we cannot for the life of us comprehend why they happened.
I know that no matter how many times I think about this topic, I will probably never come to the “right” answer.